God Did That

As I rocked Mia to sleep tonight, her head on my chest and her feet extended to my knees, I couldn't help but notice how big she is.  And I was amazed at how she could have ever fit in my stomach - and how she started from something so small we couldn't even see her.  God did that.  Think on that for a moment...one itty bitty sperm and one itty bitty egg...and now we have Mia! I stand in awe of the spectacular work of our Creator! I let my thoughts wonder further as I held Mia tight in my arms - how God had chosen her to be my child.  And that for whatever reason, she needed to be my firstborn.  I often wonder what our first baby would have been like (whom we lost in Sept 2010) - was it a boy or a girl? Would he/she have been easy like Mia or would we have struggled with sleepless nights or crying all the time?  Would I have been able to cherish every second with that first baby like I do with Mia - or would I have taken some things for granted because there was no hardship in that journey?  How would our marriage be different?  The questions are endless really! I don't let myself go there very often - but tonight it was reflection on how God hand-picked Mia and how incredibly grateful blessed I am to be her Mommy.